GO AFTER MY DREAMS BUT DON’T FORGET TO LIVE MY LIFE

I tried to leave my hurt feelings up on a forgotten shelf
but they always seem to manifest in having convos with myself
Yes, I know I hurt him…yes I know I broke him down
Did you ever stop to think that’s why you’re hurting now
Yes I know but it couldn’t be helped, I fell in love with another
After some soul searching I came to discover
Dreams are 1st priority
They keep me going and inspire me
And although that’s true, I still go through
Who would’ve guessed? Yeah, who knew?
I was just as shocked as you
Blindsided me right out the blue
Or at least that’s what I tell myself but I saw it coming a mile away
Made my choice with eyes wide open, cost me more than I was willing to pay
Let’s just say my happiness is in ICU, my pulse is faint, my head is light
Spirit’s low my soul’s weighed down I hope I make it through the night
Heartbroken, relationship over
No unicorns, no 4 leaf clover
Party of one, one woman nation
Got no time for the pity party station
I hate being vulnerable but I’m so very fragile
All so overwhelming and way too much to handle
I think I peaked too early, my money used to be so caked up
Puppy named after my favorite store, my money used to be so laced up
What in the world am I gonna do now
Wish I could smile, all I feel is a frown
Used to do what I love now I’m doing what I can barely stand
I cry to the heavens above “Oh God how I wish I knew your plan
Because my plan keeps falling through
And I’m out of ideas of what to do
Be patient and what on you
Trust and believe it will happen to
Yes, I tried…yes I fail
Yes, I win…yes I prevail
Yes, I’m angry…yes I’m mad
Yes, I sacrificed all I had
I’m in a panic but keep on smiling
Face stays beat, yes I stay styling
All in hopes that my sadness goes undetected
How I hate the struggle but I still respect it
Yes, it’s truly humbled me
Like a billion stings from one bumblebee
Life got real and yeah it hurts
But my grandmother says “Baby prayer works.”
“Just be patient, just be still
Pay close attention to God’s will
If you listen and obey
You my dear will be ok
Cause God is true, God is honest
Have faith & hold tight to his promise”
Yeah, well…my grandmother’s no stranger for dropping jewels
She would always say “You could roll with the wise or you could roll with fools.”
So I roll with the wise, my girls are cool as ever
Downright funny, downright clever
While it’s true that I appreciate my sisters and the comfort they bring
And while we’re thick as thieves, can’t say I tell them everything
Not all the time, you know what I mean
They’ll only get rowdy and cause a scene
Depending on what’s wrong, they can get a little spicy
You come for me wrong, they get a little icy
They love me strong, that’s how that go
When I need to get my mind right they always let me know
& while I chose to opt out of being a mother and a wife
They remind me to go after my dreams but don’t forget to live my life

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