I am not in control of my body
Maybe because my mind sings sorrowful tunes
Which my body waltzes through life by
I lose my mind to the urges of my body
Which commands authority of my mind
I know it’s confusing, confounding
Never really understanding why
I engrave stories into my skin
And the only reason I seem to give is
Sadness
I am living in a nightmare
Seemingly always in a loop
No matter how much I plea
I am not in control of my life
Hesitation is a constant reminder that
I am not good enough
That I need control
I dip my mind in truth till it is
Numb with lies
While I baptize myself in a sea of
Deadly imagination
The wretched song that my mind will never stop singing
The hollow tune which lingers in my trembling body
The mess that I call myself.
Still through the poetry
I scream for help
Yet it seems the louder I scream,
The more the sunlight seeps back till I can no longer see myself
I am oblivious to my own sadness
But you see, the terrible truth is,
I am not in control of me.
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