I keep thinking I am in a really long dream
I look at my life and where is my team ?
I must be in a coma because this can’t be real
I never asked to ever be single again
I want no more journeys or having to find new friends
Liars are like sharks in the sea
there seem to be so many that seek out my generous soul
Is it my destiny to just give my money away at every turn ?
If Amazon did not exist I would have to find another buffer for my fluctuating depression moods
I rarely laugh and my smile seems to have been replaced with sorrow
Why should I care to even see another sunrise ?
I am no longer the guy hearing “good nite honey” whispered in my ears
I am just a statistic wasting my time as I face another court date
I had a wonderful 36 years with whom I thought was my last mate
But being blindsided by evidence of betrayal
Destroyed my faith in our justice system
The law can often help people by approving the proper method of treatment
In my case they just considered me guilty and used a common ruling to delay my trial by jury
They call it mental health court and made me pick my own drug for treatment
From drug testing to having no power to communicate with my family
Because sending an I love You text can bring handcuffs and another stay in the pokey for trying to show someone how much they are valued
Some protective orders are just issued even without any record of violence
But the better safe than sorry is just a band aid of hope
And innocent men are left holding the check
With so easy way of ever getting what they once had back
And others wonder why I seem so lonely and bummed
Trade places with me and you to would rather be somewhere else
I just cling to what little is left of a crushed heart
Being alone is not what I wanted
It’s a bad dream that keeps getting worse
Even hope is beginning to run out of steam
And I said yes to better or for worse
There is no forever in my universe
DFC poems
2018
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Damn..
This was an extremely moving piece of writing, my friend.
“Because sending an I love You text can bring handcuffs and another stay in the pokey for trying to show someone how much they are valued”
This stanza was extremely relatable.
The exact situation happened to my cousin.. For shouting across the street “I love you” too his wife, who falsely had him served, then showed up on his work route with hopes of violating him.. It worked.
I just wanted you to know, that you’re never alone. Thanks for sharing.
This Is Really Creative, Made Me Cry Though
Very touching. I used the love bottom last night, not sure why only one per month?
“Liars are like sharks in the sea there seem to be so many that seek out my generous soul”