Inside

 

I was broken and hopeless but he straight up opened his home up and was all like “you’re chosen”.

I was just frozen, like “NAH, you dont know me, I have to be lonely! I bite the hand that feeds me, that’s me, I’m a phony!”

“Stop making excuses, you know what the truth is, ive shown you proof to what you’ve asked to be proven. Continuously your chains have been loosened, get your butt in here or Dads gonna loose it.”

I hear you, I really do but you’ve got to understand that this is what I do. I dont know how you could plan to turn this boy into man, I am who I am and whenever I can, I choose this.

“Got to understand? Could you please expand? Just exactly do you think I couldnt understand?”

…um, well…

“…and even if you believe that I cant, what would be your plan to turn yourself into man?”

…well that’s the thing, I just cant. I cant do it! I try and end up right back here with this plan to get as high as I can. It scientifically proven! I’m totally imprudent!

“All this just sounds like confusion, like illusions are causing all of your delusions. Not even 24 hours ago you and I were cruising, grooving down 395 with our tunes in, loving on dad through the music. What happened between now and then that made you feel we cant do this?”

I dont know man, I just know that at this point I’m losing, this joint in my hand does all the proving.

“Look, I know what you’re doing.  We’ve been here before; your self persecution in an attempt for seclusion. Just know I’m not moving. I love you and were gonna get through this.”

I’m so tired Jesus, why do I do this?

“Are you asking me the reason; why do you do this? Your expertise in making excuses shows me now, that you know what the truth is. You know truth, you are of my kind, with this in mind, dont you think that my plans are where you may find yourself becoming a man all within time?”

…

“Come on inside.”

…….ok..

“DAD! HE’S COMING IN!!”

HEY! Dont make such a big deal of it! I feel like a dumbass

“I would if I could but I couldn’t because I definitely wouldnt. We love you, Dad’s been talking about you non stop, but who wouldnt?”

He shouldnt…

“Well we do so suck it up and get moving. Tonight, for dessert, we’s is  havin’ banana puddin’”

…hey, Jesus?

“Yup?”

…I’m sorr-

“Its okay! Stop worrying! Come on youve been out here long enough lol if this was a race youd be loosin’”

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