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Another School Day

I open my eyes

But I don’t want to

I take a step

But I don’t want to

I walk into school

But I don’t want to

I look around

But what if I want to?

I take a deep breath

Do I really want to?

They stare at me

But do they want to?

I’m scared, so scared

Do I really have to?

I feel the water at my ankles

Do I want to?

It reaches my throat

Does it really want to?

I can’t breath, I can’t inhale

And I really want to

Their staring, their all staring

Do they really want to?

This fear, it hurts

And I don’t want it to

I can’t speak

Though I really want to

I stammer, and stammer

And I don’t want to

The teacher says “It’s you”

But I didn’t want to

I can’t breath, I can’t think

But I really want to

Please help me

I bet you don’t want to

But I need to be alone

What if I don’t want to?

This anxiety, social anxiety

Do I really want to?

I feel like I’m drowning

But I don’t want to

They only make it worse

because they don’t want to

I need help

But they don’t want to

The water clogs my throat

But I don’t want it to

Where is the drain?

 

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