Dissociation

The definition is disconnection and lack of continuity between thoughts, memories, surrounding, actions, and identify.

I have only recently realized that I dissociate.

But I don’t think I realize every time I do it.

I have times when I zone out.

At work, at school. at home.

When I feel like a machine moving on its own

Everyday I feel numb.

Like I can’t feel my true emotions anymore.

I’m always in a bubble, a cloud.

I don’t remember the last time I didn’t feel like this.

I had a dizzy spell at work.

Like major earth tilting dizzy.

I feel like I can’t walk a straight line if I tried.

I’m scared that I will go through life in a bubble.

Forgetting and repeating the same things until I die.

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