Here I am again
Putting my heartbreak on a page
Writing it out in pen
I wonder day to day
What it is about myself
That makes them walk away
This last one has really stung
Has really cut deep
We talked for so long
And held each other longer
It felt like dancing in the sun
And then one day
He’s gone
No word, no trace
No last embrace
Just gone
A cold wind that’s cold
Cold enough to slow the pitter-patter
Of my heartbeat
No explanation
No apology
Maybe I scared him off
Step too close to a crow
And they fly away
Felt too much too soon
When my heart filled like a balloon
Said too much too
Maybe it’s my size
Maybe its not
Even though I thought I was beautiful
In that dress
With him
Dancing that one night
Maybe it’s none of those things
I simply wasn’t the one for him
Not the one
Not enough
And to me, this came as no surprise
I expect the same ending every time
To be thrown away
Left to dust
They come for a moment
Make promises
Tell me beautiful lies
Then disappear
Quitely like a ghost
But detrimental like a storm
Or they say that I am good
Just not good enough
Or too good for them to love
Like a postcard
With no receiver
Forever sent to the next
No destination
That’s what I expected from this last one too
But I let my hopes take flight
Dropped my shield
Many people preached he was good
Claimed he was kind
Thought he was caring
But he wasn’t any better than the rest
So this is it for now?
Tucking hope away
Locking the door
Again
I will wait for God to send someone to me
Wait for him to unlock the door
Leave him in charge
If there is ever someone to send
If there ever is
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