Ketamine

We really put on a show for most people who think they know
The thing called hellion
Its behavior is proof of insanity
But cant they see
Truly
Apathy is failing them
We went over a number of poems
Not long ago
With the person we thought we wrote them for
It was exciting
Being praised was the best part
Were sort of
Dissapointed
Thought there’d be something more
See i used to feel myself
Right behind the eyes
Now i stare down a tunnel at the same place
And it feels like a disguise
Isnt it sad what was once love
Pales in comparison to a head rush
I want the blood pump
Want to give this random kid a good thump
Over and over
Till someone screams to stop
I wanna get in a cage
With whoever thinks that theyre on top
Experiencing body dysmorphia, to some extent
I feel i have a childs arms
This is more a journal
Posting hopefully does no harm
Hellion is infernal
Thats our favorite part
Every second of our lives is prayer
Our god
Disaster art
Theres a cruel indifference
Growing inside of me
The only thing i think
Fucking finally
Nows when it gets fun
Cogito ergo sum
I think i am the one
See ill be honest
I dont see humans anymore
I pretend to
Otherwise id just be mental
An experience in itself
I used to think it all started
With polygamy breaking the shelf
That whole mormon raquet started generations before me
And before them
On and on
Churning with the sea
We all hurt
Oh well
I set a goal
Ill pay in full
Till im in the dirt
Or hell
Or… sheol
Dont know if any of that is real
Its sort of like the concept
Of something being illegal
How could a law be broken?
That would make it by definition not a law
Oh we changed that?
Surely nobody saw
I guess the point is
Im no noble steed
More like a tiger in the bed
Who might shit or make you bleed
Just another meat sack
Fueled by avarice and greed

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