Aw shit…I’ve been avoiding this one, but here he comes slinking in.
I named him Tristitia and he hangs around my frontal lobe
all heavy seas and cold hard weight.
He drags down this crowded mind with visions of hades
or a crowded barroom full of noisy blabbermouths
a dead future a dead love.
I do subtle battle with this one
but when he wins I don’t notice
I am lost in his blanket of quiet sobs
echoing down these dark hallways
blasting with quiet numb emotions
the kind that you drown in
but that never bring death
just a sort of coma or a living unpleasant dream.
He came to me as a child
a cunning vampire
that drained the happy day away
from the sensitive little boy.
He showed me the evil that lives in us all
he showed me how to cry inside
and smile at the perpetrators
as they twisted their knives
with the kind of glee that only a human would know.
But I fight the bastard
with laughter and meditation
I read and read and read
fascination dulls him and brings a certain peace
for a while.
I know that he will be my constant companion
and I will duel him to my last breath
I swear to you that at my death I will smile
and know that my closest companion
will not follow me
but will instead cry himself to sleep.
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