My life slips away slowly
As If each day represents a grain of sand
I watch it slip through the sand glass of time
I’m growing older yet it seems nothing has changed
Still here in the same place I’ve been for years
Alone and incapable of sharing
Quiet, not daring
Or caring if anyone sees the real me
Sleepless nights
Days awake
Restless and silent
When will I stand up and decide to change my life
When will I finally have enough courage
To reach out and grasp on to something
To commit myself, and learn from the experience
Perhaps my fire has been stifled
Put out by something in my past
Yet I can’t quite think of what it is
Or maybe not just a single memory
But many compiled together
Causing me to close the door
To a bright and fulfilling life
I really want to open my heart
But fear has it closed and locked
I’ve lost the key in a ocean
Filled with heart ache and disappointment
Have you ever heard about a rose
If you want to enjoy it’s beauty
You might have to be pricked by it’s thorns first
Well I’ve been cut and bruised enough
I want to enjoy the beauty in life
And not the pain
I don’t want to stay silent
Slowly disappearing into the masses
Staying unrecognized and lonely
I want to be able to feel the emotion
Others feel
Not helpless and slipping into the darkness
I don’t want a misunderstanding
I don’t want pity
From those few who read my words
I want enlightenment
I want to see how to release myself
From this bondage
To fall in love
To touch and feel
The touch of someone
Who loves me back
Not someone who judges
But loves
Unconditionally
I will end this will a simple note
Don’t ever close your heart to life
Because it’s the hardest thing to undo
Angel
