Each day seems wrong
Each painstaking second dragging on way to long
Countless vain attempts to forget how i felt about you
countless vain attempts to avoid this anxious feeling i endure without you
The very sight of you is like a sweet poison
I nearly tear myself apart trying to resist you
I am forced to fight my desires when I’m with you
I dont feel whole, like a shadow passing through the sun
i dont feel alive like im breathing without lungs
Each night is silent torture
It drags on as i toss and turn trying to fight back my thoughts of you
I toss and turn asking god what? what can i do?
do to rid myself of these beautiful hated memories?
What can i o to forget how your touch felt to me?
My own emotions devour and consume me
Trying to escape my own thoughts, trying to run but they still pursue me
this pain will be the death of me surely it will undo me
Im drowning, im in over my head, way too deep
This feels unreal like im dreaming without sleep
I dont think i can do this
every day i have to face the fact that i simply cant win
I cant take these nights of wallowing in defeat, anger, and jealousy of him
i cant i cant
there must be something else for me to do
something else besides trying to live my life without you…
