Began my life so young and small,
Even didn’t know how myself to call.
I had a lot to go through
And in the end there would be You.
Although it’s fair or maybe not,
That someone else has to put a dot
Over my life, my moves and sorrow.
One day she’ll say there’s no tomorrow.
Beginning life so happily,
Living it warmly and easily.
Not knowing what’s outside the nest,
Not doing harm and only rest.
Feeling the warmth that comes from the heart,
Imagining this to be the nature’s art.
Being so small, yet causing a riot
To someone who sings to me in quiet.
Wasn’t my time to feel complete,
Wasn’t my right to start to breathe.
Wasn’t my time to say the nicest word,
Because decision was taken in the ward.
Silently sleeping, drreaming away,
Somebody woke me up and dreaded my day.
Silently screaming not knowing why,
Nobody hears me as I cry.
Some metal things have crashed my dreams,
I don’t understand why it had to be me.
Knowing that now I won’t see the face,
Which would calm me down in her embrace.
Knowing that I’ll never learn to feel
Being hurt or being ill.
Sometimes I wish I wasn’t even here
To leave this world so unprepared.
To know I’ll never play a game
Or do the wrong and feel the shame.
And never hear my mother’s voice,
Cause she forgot she had a choice.
Everything was a mistery to me,
Which had to raise me and set me free.
But I don’t blame nobody and it’s not my fault,
That there’ll be no one to feel the empty vault.
Won’t have a chance to smile and laugh,
Will have to go through a chosen path.
And even though it wasn’t my decision,
I think she had a future vision.
That I’ll be waiting for the day,
I can be under her heart,
In her embrace,
Again…
