Blue above and below
Blue on the inside and out
Spouting off
Shouting, cursing
Loved to go without
See there’s no reason for it
I need to ignore it
But it keeps going
Without knowing
I suddenly realize
I’m slipping beneath the surface
My breaths gone and I’m nervous
No wait I’m not
I’d rather be shot
Out of a cannon
The be treated badly by a man
And, thrown away in a can
Like a bag of trash
I’ve been smashed and trashed
Clashed with the people
That I’ve grown older with
And yet they still spit
Their hateful words in my face
Leave me no space to change
So I just stand there and take it
Although I don’t understand it
How they can say “we need to love everyone”
Turn around and I found hate
In their eyes
What a great disguise
Behind the wink in their eye
Or a bright shining smile
Well look at that
There’s another one
What a surprise
Someone else to despise me
Try and guide me
Through one of their revelations
I just sit stationary
Feel like a caged canary
Or a puppet with strings
I hear a whistle
God that’s me
I’ve already began singing
Like a taught bird
Who learned a few words
Fucking bitch I need to escape
From this shit hole of a cage
Please don’t take offense
But I’m like a dog locked in by a fence
Escaping this place
Is my only chance to face
Who I really am or what I could become
If there will ever be someone
Out there for me
Who can see me
And not who you demanded I be
Have a wonderful life
I’m gone now and there’s no reason to cry
If you’re wondering why
It’s because it won’t do any good
by Angel
