The mirror image of me is a reflection of past heroes-
A patchwork person.
Impacted and integrated; imitated,
Faulted. Cracked. Imperfect.
Emitting, perfectly,
Their emanations of imitations.
But; I think everyone is like that. Pieced together with silver and gold
Forming a mold; of their
Angels and idols they revere and mirror.
Ghosts of past haunt my future.
I follow you, leading nothing.
Can you lead a life while following one?
The trail you blazed is burned; I walk on the ashes
Behind you.
But new life springs in spring from old.
Rise, to: Achieve and Believe
I just wanted to Be and Live
Sink, into: Confusion and Delusion
I’m pulled into your confused deluge
You were my hero, my sun
You cast a shadow too big for me to over come
And I wilt in the shade
Which I cannot evade
Surrounded and rounding every bend
Bent and broken
Brakes braking, exhausted and muffled
You: wheeling and dealing
Me: numb and unfeeling
I’m reeling; you’re stealing
Time; hijacking my mind
I’m tired, of this.
Retread your tracks,
And fix the life I missed.
This is your chance
To reroute and advance,
What you’ve wrecked.
I’m on autopilot:
My driver’s asleep at the wheel, and
I can’t feel; can’t deal; or unseal-
My Fate
With you.
Go ahead. Roll the die.
Life doesn’t play the way
Your unruly rules
Try in vain to claim.
Cheaters go to jail
And there is no bail
No pass go to collect
Am I being too direct?
So. Fucking. What.
I’ll fend off with fenders
You and the other pretenders
The rule-benders
Dissenters and resenters
Wannabe-defenders
Do I offend, her?
I’m spinning out of control,
Time to duck and roll.
Life’s too damn hard.
It’s all pollution
No revolution
Or retribution
Restitution for our work, in
Retro- illusion
Revolve the revolver
And play roulette instead.
In its stead, We’re spoon fed:
Your lies.
Don’t disguise your eyes
Or emphasize your tries
It’s too late to apologize,
And I can’t cry anymore.
The image of you I reflected
Shattered and rejected
My world perspective
Whirled, in respective
Misconception. Misperception. Misdirection.
Your preconceptions misrepresented
The deception of my relation
Ends in your elation, which I’ve mistaken
When you push and shove; For love.
“Because I love you.” Does not justify
So don’t even try to rectify your lie
It’s too damn late and I won’t wait
For you to recreate your love of hate
You don’t relate but just self medicate
Day after day after day.
What a waste.
Why don’t you make haste to taste
My drug of choice, I highly recommend-
Which I’ve more than enough to lend,
You;
Is love.
The life you’ve wrecked and dented
Needs to be mended,
And I can help.
There’s enough to go round
So sit down and surround
Yourself with what you lack
And should be giving back-
Reimburse the universe:
Live and Love until you burst!
I’m easy to please, but then again,
If you listened to me
We wouldn’t be
In this mess, would we?
