Just Smile

Many people could look at me and think that I’m happy
The problem is the smile is fake
I’m supposed to be the strong one
The one that listens to problems, not share their own
I know they’ll listen to it
But I hate being a burden
Everyone has problems
Some bigger than others, but they are still problems
People who smile the biggest smiles
Hide a flood gate of tears
People who laugh the most
Are the ones who have the most sadness
People who have the most friends
Often feel the most alone
No one is who they appear to be
It’s like a post on instagram or snapchat
They make it look perfect
They show you what they think you want to see
Not what they wish they could share
Their sadness
Their sorrow
Their fear
What they wished people noticed
I could sit in my classroom or even in the middle of New York
I’ll still see just me
I’ve felt that way for two years
I think
It’s hard to remember when it starts
Especially when it’s always been a part of you
Even my mom couldn’t tell my smiles were faked
That I was crying every night
That’s how perfect my smile is and was
I hate faking it
It hurts more then the truth
Then the scars trailing up my arms
I’m done hiding
I’m done faking
I’m done smiling like a barbie doll
I’m just going to be the real me
And if someone doesn’t like it then they can go
Cause they liked the fake more than the real
This is the real me
And I’m done hiding her

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